uh huh..

I'm called to a life of silent striving,
because the world's imperfect and so am I.
As long as I have breath,
something will be incomplete.
- Stephen Simpson


since my last post, i've finished student teaching, gone to a career fair and turned in a ginormus notebook project. and that's about it. lately i've found myself to be semi-living in this void i call my life. nothing seems real right now. i'm in a funk and i guess it was just due.
lately i've read of living in the valley of the shadow of death and have realized that i'm scared of a shadow. a shadow that can't hurt me ... just intimidate me. and i'm definitely intimidated. jesus is up there, all shiny and bright, and the one thing casting the shadow is the future. you know when you're looking at someone and the sun is right behind them, so you can't see their face, but you can see that they're there? yeah, okay.. that's how i'm feeling right now. i can see that my future is there in front of me but i can't see the details of it's face or even what color t-shirt it's wearing.
But I guess that's okay... cuz ultimately, what i can see is shining right behind it. i know that god is making me step out and just trust that my future is not going to harm me and is not going to bring me down. i have to trust and know that god's got everything for me already. he knows what color t-shirt my future is wearing, and actually even knows the thread count of it's socks. which is pretty stinkin cool.