So I got back from UMArmy today. What a week! It was a good time and I met some new people and got to hang out with old friends. There's not a lot that I can write... I dunno.. there aren't a lot of words to share with you about this week. UMArmy is always something you have to experience yourself.
Like I said, I did get to hang with some old friends. I got to see and talk a lot with my friend Kat Farr from last year. We get along really well.. it's kinda crazy/awesome. We talked a whole lot... it was really cool... I also got to hang out with my friend Matthew. I haven't ever been super good friends iwth him before, but I finally got to hang out with him a lot and talk with him too. This year was different simply because our church group was so small and everyone pretty much had their own friends, new or old. So I hung back some and talked with old friends, did what I needed to get done. It was different for sure.
My small group was cool. We got a ton of work done - a group of very hard workers, just not very good friends. We got along okay, but, I keep comparing to last year's small group. It was just so great last year. But like I said, we got a whole lot done which was awesome. God taught me a lot this year. We were assigned to scrape and paint this house. If you know me, you know I'd rather build something so I can hammer and cut and stuff. Not was the case... So the first day instead of scraping like the rest of the group, I grabbed a toilet brush and some clorox and this sprayer thing and got to scrubbin the mold and mildew off the side of the house. It wasn't a very glamorous job but I didn't have to scrape. And God really taught me to be more humble this week. He got me down on the ground and had me scrubbing a house with a toilet brush...
He showed me that I wasn't on that trip for myself. I wasn't there to do things for myself; I wasn't there to get my mind off of things; I wasn't there to hammer or build. He sent me there to serve others and to serve well. He sent me there to help an old woman have a better looking house. He sent me there to make an impact on someone else. I won't know if I accomplished the last, but I hope something happened in that department.
He was faithful to me this week and He showed me to serve Him and to completely surrender myself to Him. Without complete surrender, you can't truly live. So maybe now I can truly live.
A woman told someone this week that she thought I was happier than last year, and that I had more joy. Then this morning, as she blessed my communion bread, she told me I had a renewed joy and a renewed life. I truly believe that. I am so much happier. I don't know how, I don't know why. So much has happened in the past year that there's not just one thing I can point my finger at for an explanation. I just know that today I have more joy than I did on Sunday or even on Monday. God gave me a new heart this week, He washed me clean. Hallelujah and Amen.
Saturday, May 28, 2005
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Well today I leave for my last College UM ARMY. It's bittersweet I guess. Wendy's not going so that stinks, but Ginger is so that helps a lot. But it's all good - I am ready to serve!!! Bring it on Houston....
I'll be gone for a whole week so don't expect any updates or for me to be on AIM..
Love to you all !!
I'll be gone for a whole week so don't expect any updates or for me to be on AIM..
Love to you all !!
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Well, my good friend beat me home today. James went to see Jesus, met Him face to face. I am sad to lose him but really, and I have to keep telling myself this, he's so much happier now where he is. And on the way home tonight, I couldn't help but think about the scripture in 1 Corinthians 13:
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
This verse totally made me smile. All I could think was that James now sees face to face. And now James fully knows. How awesome and amazing.
And what an amazing man James was. His faith over the years that I have known him has just been a huge testimony and a great example to follow. He has been someone that I look up to and someone that I could count on for anything. He became a wonderful listener and I could only hope to be that great of a friend to someone else.
Ya know, I have known the Barretts closely for probably 6-7 years, and they have been nothing but supportive of me in my college career and in life in general. James and Carol really got me through my freshman year at A&M ... and James got to see me all the way through school. I know I'm selfish, but it's true. They prayed a lot for me and they prayed me through it. I owe that family so much.
Sometimes life just sucks, and yeah, earlier this evening life was sucking. But eventually, the joy came with the morning. (Psalm 30:5) Jesus is celebrating with James, and I can't think of anywhere else I'd rather James be....
Psalm 30:5
For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
This verse totally made me smile. All I could think was that James now sees face to face. And now James fully knows. How awesome and amazing.
And what an amazing man James was. His faith over the years that I have known him has just been a huge testimony and a great example to follow. He has been someone that I look up to and someone that I could count on for anything. He became a wonderful listener and I could only hope to be that great of a friend to someone else.
Ya know, I have known the Barretts closely for probably 6-7 years, and they have been nothing but supportive of me in my college career and in life in general. James and Carol really got me through my freshman year at A&M ... and James got to see me all the way through school. I know I'm selfish, but it's true. They prayed a lot for me and they prayed me through it. I owe that family so much.
Sometimes life just sucks, and yeah, earlier this evening life was sucking. But eventually, the joy came with the morning. (Psalm 30:5) Jesus is celebrating with James, and I can't think of anywhere else I'd rather James be....
Psalm 30:5
For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
This weekend basically rocked. It was just amazing. There's nothing like graduating from college and having the freedom to just ... well the same whatever I've been doing for five years, but now I'm a college grad. I have a degree, not a major. whoop.
I wrote on Saturday and it was cool or whatever, but as I looked back on it, it seems kind of sad and depressing. So here's a better one :)
Okay so church was cool on Sunday. How often does that happen? Ha. I went to the 9:30 service and I don't remember a whole lot but Jerry's sermon was not too bad. Then I went over to the Journey. Wendy did a great job on the altar. She made it appear like there were flames on there.. so cool.. She has a flare (no pun intended i swear) for altar stuff and she's good at it. The perfectionist in her makes her art awesome and worshipful (if that's a word). Then Michael's sermon was very cool. I always like the spins he takes on an every year occasion. This week was Pentecost and he focused on Matthias. But my favorite part of his sermon was when he was talking about the power God gave the apostles. He said something to the effect of: God didn't give them superhuman powers, He gave them the power to communicate.
I'm reading this book to help prepare for this summer's junior high bible studies about superheros and the connection between their personalities and lives with scripture and christian living. So when Michael mentioned the power that God gave the apostles that day, I thought of the superhuman powers given to those heros. And I thought God could have given them the power to fly or the power to shower down his wrath on those who persecute or even the power to perform miracles of the old testament, but He gave them the power to share His word. Whoa. Yeah.. take that in for a second... I'll give you a few...
God is so loving, so compassionate, so awesome that he gave all of us the power of words. He gave us the words and the passion to share his love with others. We don't even have to know that we're speaking a different language as long as we know we're speaking God's love.
When we were in Mexico, and I said this in an earlier post, we went to this church service the last night we were in Reynosa. It was at the church we had been 'stationed' at and where we did a lot of our work. At the end of the service, the pastor asked the family we built for to stand and pray for us. They hadn't said much all week either because they were uncertain of the language barrier or whatever, but that night was amazing. I felt God in that small church. I felt his awesome burning presence in that room. When that family opened their mouths and raised their hands towards us and just started praying for us, it was amazing. Most of us didn't know what they were saying, but we knew they were blessing us, we knew, through God's awesome power, exactly what they meant. I felt his love coming from them and just permeating that room into our hearts.
Yeah. God's love is awesome. That's all I have to say about that.
I wrote on Saturday and it was cool or whatever, but as I looked back on it, it seems kind of sad and depressing. So here's a better one :)
Okay so church was cool on Sunday. How often does that happen? Ha. I went to the 9:30 service and I don't remember a whole lot but Jerry's sermon was not too bad. Then I went over to the Journey. Wendy did a great job on the altar. She made it appear like there were flames on there.. so cool.. She has a flare (no pun intended i swear) for altar stuff and she's good at it. The perfectionist in her makes her art awesome and worshipful (if that's a word). Then Michael's sermon was very cool. I always like the spins he takes on an every year occasion. This week was Pentecost and he focused on Matthias. But my favorite part of his sermon was when he was talking about the power God gave the apostles. He said something to the effect of: God didn't give them superhuman powers, He gave them the power to communicate.
I'm reading this book to help prepare for this summer's junior high bible studies about superheros and the connection between their personalities and lives with scripture and christian living. So when Michael mentioned the power that God gave the apostles that day, I thought of the superhuman powers given to those heros. And I thought God could have given them the power to fly or the power to shower down his wrath on those who persecute or even the power to perform miracles of the old testament, but He gave them the power to share His word. Whoa. Yeah.. take that in for a second... I'll give you a few...
God is so loving, so compassionate, so awesome that he gave all of us the power of words. He gave us the words and the passion to share his love with others. We don't even have to know that we're speaking a different language as long as we know we're speaking God's love.
When we were in Mexico, and I said this in an earlier post, we went to this church service the last night we were in Reynosa. It was at the church we had been 'stationed' at and where we did a lot of our work. At the end of the service, the pastor asked the family we built for to stand and pray for us. They hadn't said much all week either because they were uncertain of the language barrier or whatever, but that night was amazing. I felt God in that small church. I felt his awesome burning presence in that room. When that family opened their mouths and raised their hands towards us and just started praying for us, it was amazing. Most of us didn't know what they were saying, but we knew they were blessing us, we knew, through God's awesome power, exactly what they meant. I felt his love coming from them and just permeating that room into our hearts.
Yeah. God's love is awesome. That's all I have to say about that.
Sunday, May 15, 2005
K.. so i saw that friend today. He came to my house this afternoon for the grad party my mom threw. It was really good seeing him. I miss his friendship. After 5 years of little communication it's a good refresher to see my friend. I gotta say, I still am worried about him. I dunno.. he's going to be here this summer which makes me happy. :) That means I'll have Danny AND him!! But I won't have Mike.... it's okay because God is good!
Today I walked across the stage. I graduated from college today. I got my diploma today. I officially received my degree today. Today I was rewarded with a piece of paper that has some fancy-schmancy words on it to acknowledge 5 years of hard work (well not that hard) and dedication to my university and to my schooling. As of today, I never have to attend college class again.
Ooh.. I like the last one the best :) WHOOP.
I gotta say, this morning I was nervous. When we got onto the floor I was anxious. Halfway through the ceremony I was bored. When we stood to get in the line I was nervous. As I reached the top of the stairs I was ready. When I walked across the stage, all I could think was, smile and don't trip. Then I got to the end and I gave my prof a big hug which is especially funny because he's not really my favorite prof... now that I think about it, I think I was so out of it that I wasn't thinking when I walked up to him. Hahaha... wow...
Today has been a flurry of emotions, as you can tell. It's amazing how much people care for you and how they congratulate you when stuff goes good. And it's even better when they're there for you when stuff goes bad. Today was great. I have to admit, today was great. Yeah... yeah.
I was surfin around on the net and came across this song by Garth Brooks that I just love. The lyrics are amazing and they encourage me to never give up, never quit because everything around me tells me I'm different. It encourages me to follow my heart, follow my gut. Check these out....
"The Change"
One hand
Reaches out
And pulls a lost soul from harm
While a thousand more go unspoken for
They say what good have you done
By saving just this one
It's like whispering a prayer
In the fury of a storm
And I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world will know
That it will not change me
This heart
Still believes
The love and mercy still exist
While all the hatred rage and so many say
That love is all but pointless in madness such as this
It's like trying to stop a fire
With the moisture from a kiss
And I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world will know
That it will not change me
As long as one heart still holds on
Then hope is never really gone
I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world we know
Never changes me
What I do is so
This world will know
That it will not change me
They're just great. I love that song. So great.... Here's a parting scripture for you from my friend Katie. She showed me this today and I just like it :)
2 Timothy 4:5-8
But you, keep your head in all situations, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, discharge all the duties of your ministry. For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.
Today I walked across the stage. I graduated from college today. I got my diploma today. I officially received my degree today. Today I was rewarded with a piece of paper that has some fancy-schmancy words on it to acknowledge 5 years of hard work (well not that hard) and dedication to my university and to my schooling. As of today, I never have to attend college class again.
Ooh.. I like the last one the best :) WHOOP.
I gotta say, this morning I was nervous. When we got onto the floor I was anxious. Halfway through the ceremony I was bored. When we stood to get in the line I was nervous. As I reached the top of the stairs I was ready. When I walked across the stage, all I could think was, smile and don't trip. Then I got to the end and I gave my prof a big hug which is especially funny because he's not really my favorite prof... now that I think about it, I think I was so out of it that I wasn't thinking when I walked up to him. Hahaha... wow...
Today has been a flurry of emotions, as you can tell. It's amazing how much people care for you and how they congratulate you when stuff goes good. And it's even better when they're there for you when stuff goes bad. Today was great. I have to admit, today was great. Yeah... yeah.
I was surfin around on the net and came across this song by Garth Brooks that I just love. The lyrics are amazing and they encourage me to never give up, never quit because everything around me tells me I'm different. It encourages me to follow my heart, follow my gut. Check these out....
"The Change"
One hand
Reaches out
And pulls a lost soul from harm
While a thousand more go unspoken for
They say what good have you done
By saving just this one
It's like whispering a prayer
In the fury of a storm
And I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world will know
That it will not change me
This heart
Still believes
The love and mercy still exist
While all the hatred rage and so many say
That love is all but pointless in madness such as this
It's like trying to stop a fire
With the moisture from a kiss
And I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world will know
That it will not change me
As long as one heart still holds on
Then hope is never really gone
I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world we know
Never changes me
What I do is so
This world will know
That it will not change me
They're just great. I love that song. So great.... Here's a parting scripture for you from my friend Katie. She showed me this today and I just like it :)
2 Timothy 4:5-8
But you, keep your head in all situations, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, discharge all the duties of your ministry. For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.
Friday, May 13, 2005
ARGH! Why does it take being mean to get a phone call???
I have this friend whom I love very much and he means a lot to me... and we've known each other for a very long time now. I call him, I text him.. but he does not return my calls. It bugs me and worries me to no end! And I'm sure I could just say he has a communication problem, but that simply scratches the surface.
So I called him tonight because I haven't talked to him since like, January, and I wanted to see how his semester was going/ending up. Last I heard, he was graduating this semester and I wanted to extend my good wishes for him. Well, he didn't answer. So I tried to leave a message, but it was screwed up so I text messaged him.
Basically, I said: Hey. I want to talk to you. You need to call me. I call and you don't call back. I'm worried about you and you're not being a good friend. Call.
Yeah, pretty much that's what it said. So I go to brush my teeth and get ready for bed, then sit down at the computer and my phone starts ringing. Well I think it's Mike, simply because I have not talked to him all day, but it's my friend. I honestly was not expecting a phone call from him at all. But he did.
We talked for only a few minutes because he was out and I was getting ready for bed and neither of us really could talk about what really needed to be said. So I invited him to my graduation party this weekend and told him to call me tomorrow so we could talk a little and so he could get directions to the party. I really hope he calls me tomorrow.... there's really nothing like losing a best friend to lack of communication....
Gosh this sucks. I mean, I'm feeling kind of sad right now - not crying sad, but disappointed sad, frustrated sad. I'm disappointed in me for not being more persistant, and in him for being horrible at returning calls.
This has been my prayer today, and now it applies even more... These are excerpts from MercyMe's song 'Homesick' They don't apply the way you think they might, but they've been inspiration and constant comfort since 2 this afternoon. God gives me the words in my heart at just the right time.
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home
Ha... oh yeah, Mike and I graduate this weekend. I guess that is something good to share.
Please keep me in your prayers and please keep my friend in your prayers... he ... sigh... He needs to get back to his roots and he needs to remember how it feels to be complete in Christ and to really have full satisfaction solely in that relationship.
I have this friend whom I love very much and he means a lot to me... and we've known each other for a very long time now. I call him, I text him.. but he does not return my calls. It bugs me and worries me to no end! And I'm sure I could just say he has a communication problem, but that simply scratches the surface.
So I called him tonight because I haven't talked to him since like, January, and I wanted to see how his semester was going/ending up. Last I heard, he was graduating this semester and I wanted to extend my good wishes for him. Well, he didn't answer. So I tried to leave a message, but it was screwed up so I text messaged him.
Basically, I said: Hey. I want to talk to you. You need to call me. I call and you don't call back. I'm worried about you and you're not being a good friend. Call.
Yeah, pretty much that's what it said. So I go to brush my teeth and get ready for bed, then sit down at the computer and my phone starts ringing. Well I think it's Mike, simply because I have not talked to him all day, but it's my friend. I honestly was not expecting a phone call from him at all. But he did.
We talked for only a few minutes because he was out and I was getting ready for bed and neither of us really could talk about what really needed to be said. So I invited him to my graduation party this weekend and told him to call me tomorrow so we could talk a little and so he could get directions to the party. I really hope he calls me tomorrow.... there's really nothing like losing a best friend to lack of communication....
Gosh this sucks. I mean, I'm feeling kind of sad right now - not crying sad, but disappointed sad, frustrated sad. I'm disappointed in me for not being more persistant, and in him for being horrible at returning calls.
This has been my prayer today, and now it applies even more... These are excerpts from MercyMe's song 'Homesick' They don't apply the way you think they might, but they've been inspiration and constant comfort since 2 this afternoon. God gives me the words in my heart at just the right time.
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home
Ha... oh yeah, Mike and I graduate this weekend. I guess that is something good to share.
Please keep me in your prayers and please keep my friend in your prayers... he ... sigh... He needs to get back to his roots and he needs to remember how it feels to be complete in Christ and to really have full satisfaction solely in that relationship.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
It's a great day to be alive!
I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes.
There's some hard times in the neighborhood,
But why can't every day be just this good?
-Travis Tritt
Ya'll I heard this song today, and honestly thought,
1) how long has it been since I've heard this song? and
2) how long has it been since I listened to the lyrics of this song?
I was driving down Hwy 21 on my way home from Caldwell, and this song popped up on the radio (because I'm radio ADD) and it made me smile. Because today truly has been a great day! I woke up this morning and was a little tired and a little late getting to school, but no one really noticed! I walked into the office and the ladies were so sweet to me (they usually are, but today was extra nice). The kids were pretty stinkin' good today (for the most part) and I dunno.. it was a good day at school overall. So on my way back to B/CS, I heard that song on the radio and it just made me happy! :)
So here's the rest of my evening...
I ran home for all of 4 minutes and headed out to the church to pick up an application for a summer job. Then I headed over to the Pryor's because I love them so much. I got to play with Paige for a little bit (she is getting so big!) and talk with Mandy and Stoney. They are a great family and I am so blessed to know them and have their support, love and prayers!!
After that short visit, I went BACK to the church to change clothes and see the counselors before they had their meeting. So I left there and went to my softball game. And dude... the 6:15 game was incredible! My first up-to-bat was awesome!! I hit a triple!! And then later on in the game, I caught this awesome ball out in left field! I was running up to it, cuz it was about to hit the ground, and I just ran up, lowered my glove, almost to the ground and CAUGHT IT !!! Yeah... it was just awesome.
So after the game, I went to dinner with my small group to J.Cody's BBQ for our last meeting together. It was so great, especially since it is Lauren's bday today... (HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAUREN!)
Well, that pretty much covers it for today... seems like a pretty long day huh? Well, it was, but like I said.. It has been a great day :)
"This is the day that the Lord has made;
let us rejoice and be glad in it."
Psalm 118:24
Much love!
I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes.
There's some hard times in the neighborhood,
But why can't every day be just this good?
-Travis Tritt
Ya'll I heard this song today, and honestly thought,
1) how long has it been since I've heard this song? and
2) how long has it been since I listened to the lyrics of this song?
I was driving down Hwy 21 on my way home from Caldwell, and this song popped up on the radio (because I'm radio ADD) and it made me smile. Because today truly has been a great day! I woke up this morning and was a little tired and a little late getting to school, but no one really noticed! I walked into the office and the ladies were so sweet to me (they usually are, but today was extra nice). The kids were pretty stinkin' good today (for the most part) and I dunno.. it was a good day at school overall. So on my way back to B/CS, I heard that song on the radio and it just made me happy! :)
So here's the rest of my evening...
I ran home for all of 4 minutes and headed out to the church to pick up an application for a summer job. Then I headed over to the Pryor's because I love them so much. I got to play with Paige for a little bit (she is getting so big!) and talk with Mandy and Stoney. They are a great family and I am so blessed to know them and have their support, love and prayers!!
After that short visit, I went BACK to the church to change clothes and see the counselors before they had their meeting. So I left there and went to my softball game. And dude... the 6:15 game was incredible! My first up-to-bat was awesome!! I hit a triple!! And then later on in the game, I caught this awesome ball out in left field! I was running up to it, cuz it was about to hit the ground, and I just ran up, lowered my glove, almost to the ground and CAUGHT IT !!! Yeah... it was just awesome.
So after the game, I went to dinner with my small group to J.Cody's BBQ for our last meeting together. It was so great, especially since it is Lauren's bday today... (HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAUREN!)
Well, that pretty much covers it for today... seems like a pretty long day huh? Well, it was, but like I said.. It has been a great day :)
"This is the day that the Lord has made;
let us rejoice and be glad in it."
Psalm 118:24
Much love!
Saturday, May 07, 2005
So much better! :)
Please do not go away until I come back
and bring my offering and set it before you."
And the LORD said,
"I will wait until you return."
Judges 6:18
The story of Gideon here talks about how God chose Gideon, the least of his family, to save the Israelites from Midian. Midian was oppressive and powerful and the Israelites were afraid of him. They plead to God for help and God chose Gideon. Gideon tests God's power and will two times before he takes off to save the Israelites. Of course, God proves His will each time so Gideon takes off.
When I saw this verse, I just remembered how God is always waiting for me to come back to him with my offering, my sacrifice. And yet, we are waiting on Him too. We wait for His truth, His passion, His will... and He waits for our offering, our acknowledgement, our plea for help, our love. His love is more than we can fathom, which in of itself is hard to understand. But He waits. For some, He waits their whole life for just a glimpse, for others, He waits through some double-triple-octuple takes, and for more, He waits for an eye-contact, grasping stare. I want to give Him my stare.
He deserves my stare, my locked-on undivided attention.
What have I done to deserve your son sent to die for me
What can I give I want to live give me eyes to see
In a world that keeps changin’ there’s one thing that I know is true
Your love is stayin’ there’s nothing else I’ll hold onto
You say I belong to you apart from the things I do
You say I belong to you I’m in awe of why you do
Why you do
-Jadon Lavik
Please do not go away until I come back
and bring my offering and set it before you."
And the LORD said,
"I will wait until you return."
Judges 6:18
The story of Gideon here talks about how God chose Gideon, the least of his family, to save the Israelites from Midian. Midian was oppressive and powerful and the Israelites were afraid of him. They plead to God for help and God chose Gideon. Gideon tests God's power and will two times before he takes off to save the Israelites. Of course, God proves His will each time so Gideon takes off.
When I saw this verse, I just remembered how God is always waiting for me to come back to him with my offering, my sacrifice. And yet, we are waiting on Him too. We wait for His truth, His passion, His will... and He waits for our offering, our acknowledgement, our plea for help, our love. His love is more than we can fathom, which in of itself is hard to understand. But He waits. For some, He waits their whole life for just a glimpse, for others, He waits through some double-triple-octuple takes, and for more, He waits for an eye-contact, grasping stare. I want to give Him my stare.
He deserves my stare, my locked-on undivided attention.
What have I done to deserve your son sent to die for me
What can I give I want to live give me eyes to see
In a world that keeps changin’ there’s one thing that I know is true
Your love is stayin’ there’s nothing else I’ll hold onto
You say I belong to you apart from the things I do
You say I belong to you I’m in awe of why you do
Why you do
-Jadon Lavik
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